Friday, June 10, 2011

You weren't a loser. You were just self-centred.

 I feel my face scrunch up whenever I see some beautiful/talented/successful artist/singer/etc gushing about what a loser they were as a kid. It's supposed to be endearing and self-deprecating and all those things, but I just don't buy it.And whenever you see their photos they usually look immaculate and content. Even they do look a bit dweebish or weird, it's endearing rather than genuinely off-putting.

30 Rock caputred it nicely. Liz (Tina Fey) spends half an episode dreading attending her highschool reunion, reminiscing on being generally teased and ostracized in general. Only when she arrives does she realise she's commited self-delusion on a grand scale. She was a top-mopped and thickly-glassed bully.

Life, not just just highschool, is like that. We spend most of our time feeling put-down and left out, while remaining oblivious to the hurt we're causing others, intentional or otherwise. 


 Even if you felt like a loser, hasn't time shown you that were in-fact - especially in regards to your current success - pretty cool? Also, wouldn't you have the maturity to see that there were a lot more people more genuinely outcast  than you with your braces/'kooky' habits/bad fashion? If you think back to school there was always one kid who really just never ever fit. Not even into the so-called 'nerdy' and 'unfashionable' groups that most so-called-losers gathered in to.


Not that these people would call themselves losers, and far be it for me to go around calling them so. But by objective standards of success in terms of popularity, these people never did well. Sometimes I imagine I see what they're grown into, and there's a kind of bitterness to it. Now that being a childhood loser has become such a thing-to-do in certain places, where will they go from there? I can't imagine these self-proclaimed child-losers would give them the time of day. Famous or not. They'd probably think there was something not right, that they were losers. 

It's as if they've hurled out of the only box they had. Then again, they're probably not even aware of it, or if they do they don't even care. It's those people, the true loners, 'losers', and one-of-a-kind freaks that I love. Not that I'm going to go hug them or invite them for tea and macarons, but I atleast I'm aware that I was never a loser, freak, or weirdo. Just a typical person who spent a little too much time thinking only of themselves.

I'll conclude with some Blind Melon. It's appropriate, and almost always brings a tear to my eye.

2 comments:

  1. Another thing that springs to mind is supermodels/actressed/whatevs saying how they were teased for being ugly in highschool and in the picture they look the same as now but with the tiny body of a child. And I'm like yeah, total fugmo, GTFO.
    Or worse, when they say they were picked on because obviously all the other kids were jealous of their confidence and everlasting beauty, a la Ruby Rose in a certain interview I can recall. Sorry to be harsh, beautiful self-deprecating celebrities, but you're a bunch of retards.
    In other news, heeeeeey. :)

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  2. Oh I know, the only episode of ANTM I ever seem to see is where the girls have to model with something they've been teased about drawn on themselves. One literally broke down while reminiscing on being called "Giraffe" (she also did a great/bad impression of Frankenstein before welling up). Sure that would sting but have a sense of perspective.

    And that Ruby Rose interview reads heinous. I'd go looking but I feel the less I know about her the better.

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